Eupterus
10-28-2009, 12:00 PM
I'm so sick of "theres' NO room"....it makes cleaning and organizing extremely time consuming. Add on the art studio( or rather the CONTENTS of the art studio lacking the actual studio), hobbies including fish tanks and you end feeling closophobic most of the time. Outside people are amazed what I've got in here. Somehow I manged to fit a bed in the studio supplies.
Of course the most logical thing to do would be to quit the hobbies and just stick with most important which would be the career. Which would easily take the room that the tanks are occupying. I've done the almost hobby -free life minus my boarded fish which I could not find homes for before. I figured, wait until you get a home, THEN have hobbies.
And besides being on unemployment makes one feel guilty for having hobbies. I mean it's one thing to be spending money on living expenses, quite another to spent it on pleasure and de- stressing. Sometimes I think if all I did is stick some rice and beans into my mouth, lived hobby -free and paid bills minus internet, I could go off unemployment and live guilt free. If I lived like this ( in other words go into poverty), I might be able to pay rent without using unemployment funds and using food stamps.
Didn't last very long. I couldn't take living without hobbies so I went back.
And the idea of living in poverty feels so negative. I'm too much of "wuss" to let go of my middle class lifestyle. It started with one tank and well you know the end of the story, I have six squeezed in here. I had eight and took down a rack. There's a displaced female betta on the floor in the bedroom waiting to go ...somewhere.
I have to live in fear of the housing authority because they say I'm allowed on ten gal tank.
I decided I'm going to shrug my shoulders because I'm already living in fear all the time for other reasons. I've been living in fear of poverty for so long that I'm getting de-sensitized to living in fear I guess.
The entire apartment is smaller then some art studios. I went on a pro artist tour before.
Part of me blames me for not working hard enough on my artwork to be able to buy or rent a real working studio and get ahead. IF only I worked harder. Then again I did make myself extremely sick in teh past as a working artist. I just kept pushing myself to meet quality goals and my body couldn't take it. I laugh when people talk about doing artwork for passion and other nonsense. So then again, maybe pacing myself is good even if it takes longer to suceed.
Filling ones bedroom with studio does not really count. The other part blames the outside economy for making things so difficult.
My parents long had their own home by my age. There's wasn't as much of a distance between wages and bills to make buying a home such a hue challenge.
Just wondering anyone live in tight quarters are a result of expenses/ economy issues?.
Of course the most logical thing to do would be to quit the hobbies and just stick with most important which would be the career. Which would easily take the room that the tanks are occupying. I've done the almost hobby -free life minus my boarded fish which I could not find homes for before. I figured, wait until you get a home, THEN have hobbies.
And besides being on unemployment makes one feel guilty for having hobbies. I mean it's one thing to be spending money on living expenses, quite another to spent it on pleasure and de- stressing. Sometimes I think if all I did is stick some rice and beans into my mouth, lived hobby -free and paid bills minus internet, I could go off unemployment and live guilt free. If I lived like this ( in other words go into poverty), I might be able to pay rent without using unemployment funds and using food stamps.
Didn't last very long. I couldn't take living without hobbies so I went back.
And the idea of living in poverty feels so negative. I'm too much of "wuss" to let go of my middle class lifestyle. It started with one tank and well you know the end of the story, I have six squeezed in here. I had eight and took down a rack. There's a displaced female betta on the floor in the bedroom waiting to go ...somewhere.
I have to live in fear of the housing authority because they say I'm allowed on ten gal tank.
I decided I'm going to shrug my shoulders because I'm already living in fear all the time for other reasons. I've been living in fear of poverty for so long that I'm getting de-sensitized to living in fear I guess.
The entire apartment is smaller then some art studios. I went on a pro artist tour before.
Part of me blames me for not working hard enough on my artwork to be able to buy or rent a real working studio and get ahead. IF only I worked harder. Then again I did make myself extremely sick in teh past as a working artist. I just kept pushing myself to meet quality goals and my body couldn't take it. I laugh when people talk about doing artwork for passion and other nonsense. So then again, maybe pacing myself is good even if it takes longer to suceed.
Filling ones bedroom with studio does not really count. The other part blames the outside economy for making things so difficult.
My parents long had their own home by my age. There's wasn't as much of a distance between wages and bills to make buying a home such a hue challenge.
Just wondering anyone live in tight quarters are a result of expenses/ economy issues?.