I can't handle simple stressors anymore without feeling like there is already a ton on my shoulders.
My ex (my 3 oldest children's biologic donor) is the most pig headed, stubborn, idiotic, ding bat in the whole world. He has decided that after not being a consistant presence in my kids lives that now he wants to play "I'm the perfect dad" My kids are confused and stressed over it my 17 year old son moved out of my house and in with my mom and dad to get away from his constant barage of "this is what I want and nothing else matters", my 14 year old wishes he could do the same. My 12 year old bursts into tears for no reason at the dinner table or we will be watching tv and all of a sudden he is crying. I'm a nervous wreak, trying to keep a smile on my face whenever I ask my ex-idiot if we can sit down and discuss the problem like adults, he yells obscenities and threatens to take me back to court because I'm "denying him his visitation" right and that is why over the last five years (when he moved back to the state of Maryland) whenever he has called and wanted to see them (sometimes going for 6 months without calling) I would say 80% of the time I have let them go because I felt it was important to keep open some kind of channel of communication between him and the boys no matter how tenuous it was. The other 20% would be when he would call at 11pm on a saturday and want them at 8 the next morning, I kept telling him I needed more than a couple hours notice.......duh.............So now he wants them for a month and is throwing a temper tantrum (i.e. probably at some lawyers office or at the court house filing papers as I type this). The strange thing is that he didn't start this garbage until he got himself a girlfriend, I mean I don't know if he is trying to impress her by making it look like he was a good father for the last 10 years or if since she has no children of her own she is pushing him, thinking to integrate herself into their lives and thereby show my ex how much she "loves" my children so she can stay with him.
On top of that I am taking a summer course Intro to chemistry it's been 9 years since I took a class and it's a tad wearing trying to find my "college" legs again.
Then there is work we have had more drunks and drug addicts come through lately than we have in a long time and I dread going to work because I know I will end up having to wrestle with some idiot in the DT's. This weekend was horrible, when I got up this morning I could barely move my shoulders and back and down my right side was hurting so much from trying to protect these idiots from hurting themselves or anybody else and I end up getting my butt kicked.
Anyway I had to vent to someone and since you are the only ones around that I feel comfortable venting to at this time (pretty sad eh). Sorry for the long rant :shark:
My ex (my 3 oldest children's biologic donor) is the most pig headed, stubborn, idiotic, ding bat in the whole world. He has decided that after not being a consistant presence in my kids lives that now he wants to play "I'm the perfect dad" My kids are confused and stressed over it my 17 year old son moved out of my house and in with my mom and dad to get away from his constant barage of "this is what I want and nothing else matters", my 14 year old wishes he could do the same. My 12 year old bursts into tears for no reason at the dinner table or we will be watching tv and all of a sudden he is crying. I'm a nervous wreak, trying to keep a smile on my face whenever I ask my ex-idiot if we can sit down and discuss the problem like adults, he yells obscenities and threatens to take me back to court because I'm "denying him his visitation" right and that is why over the last five years (when he moved back to the state of Maryland) whenever he has called and wanted to see them (sometimes going for 6 months without calling) I would say 80% of the time I have let them go because I felt it was important to keep open some kind of channel of communication between him and the boys no matter how tenuous it was. The other 20% would be when he would call at 11pm on a saturday and want them at 8 the next morning, I kept telling him I needed more than a couple hours notice.......duh.............So now he wants them for a month and is throwing a temper tantrum (i.e. probably at some lawyers office or at the court house filing papers as I type this). The strange thing is that he didn't start this garbage until he got himself a girlfriend, I mean I don't know if he is trying to impress her by making it look like he was a good father for the last 10 years or if since she has no children of her own she is pushing him, thinking to integrate herself into their lives and thereby show my ex how much she "loves" my children so she can stay with him.
On top of that I am taking a summer course Intro to chemistry it's been 9 years since I took a class and it's a tad wearing trying to find my "college" legs again.
Then there is work we have had more drunks and drug addicts come through lately than we have in a long time and I dread going to work because I know I will end up having to wrestle with some idiot in the DT's. This weekend was horrible, when I got up this morning I could barely move my shoulders and back and down my right side was hurting so much from trying to protect these idiots from hurting themselves or anybody else and I end up getting my butt kicked.
Anyway I had to vent to someone and since you are the only ones around that I feel comfortable venting to at this time (pretty sad eh). Sorry for the long rant :shark:
