tardive dyskinesia

Liz

Liz

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I developed tardive dyskinesia, a neurological condition (constant, involuntary movements, for me in my mouth and face) from a year long use of the antipsychotic Geodon. I am now going off of Geodon with my doctor's permission, and I have read that this drug is one of the hardest psych drugs to come off of. Hallucinations, panic attacks.... I'm tapering off of it. Last night was my first time taking a lower dose, and I do not feel like myself. Very high strung, the tardive dyskinesia is worse, my mind is racing, i'm very irritable, I feel on the verge of panic/violence...
and I have to go to school tomorrow.

I don't know what's the point of posting this but I feel horrible and am going to feel horrible for the next 3 weeks and the tardive dyskinesia may never go away, and all of my symptoms may come back and

I'm scared.
 
You forgot to mention very very brave. Please remember to add that to your list.
 
It's coming back. I feel like I'm in a nightmare. Plus my memory is fuzzy and my body seems very distant.

For more background info, look up "depersonalization". I also have post traumatic stress from a drug overdose so I have like psychotic flashbacks brought on by anxiety/panic. and panic attacks.
 
Calmly now. The person you really are, the conversation in your mind that defines "you" is going to be stimulated in some pretty unplesant directions in the next few weeks. Remember that central person. You will always be you, no matter what your body communicates to you. Stay strong and keep firmly in mind that this is all window dressing. The essential "you" is going to be ok.
 
Sorry to hear that, Liz. All I can recommend is that you increase your uptake of vitamins at this time. Especially Vitamins E and B6, [SIZE=-1]choline, lecithin, and manganese. Good luck.
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Dangerdoll said:
Liz, you are dealing with this and going to school? Why wouldn't they keep you from school?
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My doctor wants me to go to school and do activities and such to keep my mind occupied.

It has been helping, I think, since depersonalization only comes if you are thinking about it.

I'm on the lowest dose now, in a few days I will be off. So far it hasn't been too bad, a few bad days but overall not as bad as I was expecting. Last night I was going down to the lowest dose and I started worrying about the depersonalization coming back and being alone (you become isolated during it, because family and friends seem unfamiliar and unreal) so it came back and this morning I woke up after a nightmare so
 
Liz, stay strong you can get through this!
 
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