aww sweetie i'm sorry to hear that.... she's no longer in pain, and thats what you gotta remember. if you need anything at all, you know where to find us, hun.
JM, I know how you feel. I had already moved down south before my grandparents died and didn't find out till after they died. It had been years since I had even seen them which made it worse. I won't go into the story of why we moved here but it had to do with fighting between my moms parents and her parents. Long story short my grandfather wrote my mom apologizing and asked us to come up for Christmas.She waited to long to reply and he committed suicide. The letter was in the mailbox when we arrived. I still hate my mom to this day for that. My other grandfather died after a fall then my dads mother died shortly after,she just gave up on life and wasted away. If we had been up there I feel we could have prevented that. My grandmother on my moms side I didn't even make the funeral. Again my parents are to blame as they wouldn't lend me the money to go to NY with them.
But I'm getting off track. Its the memories you need to remember and not the should haves.
Hope you get to feeling better and that the memories carry you for your lifetime.