man i know that feeling as well aye, i had recieved a wild caught pair of bristol nose pleco from amazon rusty wessel collected them i had them for a week and for some reason the male found a hole i didnt even know i had and i found him dead with no recovery actually i found my cat playing with it, sorry buddy..
Oh, Gosh! I know these things can happen, but they can make anyone feel so sick!
I'm so sorry, my friend; but remember you have to take good care of her babies and I know that's going to be a very satisfying experience for you.