Pet, I am very sorry to hear that your Grandmother has passed. It is good for her though as her suffering is over--but yours is not. A wound of the heart is very difficult and I hope you can take comfort in knowing that she was ready and welcomed death and is no longer in pain. I watched my dear Mother suffer for a long time with breast cancer and at the end, death was a release for her as well as for us--but it still didn't make it any easier. Losing someone you love is devastating and I hope that you are doing okay. I am glad that you got to spend some time talking with her before she passed, I am sure it was of great comfort for her. She sounds like she was a very strong woman as she has survived longer than the doctors expected. Take time brother. You and your Grandmother are in my prayers.